FUCK

So to go with my happy post from earlier, here comes something that sucks.

Today two of my favourite hardcore bands broke up.

Internal Affairs and No Apologies.

Both bands to me symbolise everything that is RIGHT with hardcore right now.

None of these bands are following whats cool, styling their hair and wearing the right clothes (although sweet TRIUMVIR hook up by IA haha), but just playing honest as fuck hardcore which fucking rules.

I’m fucking bummed that i’m going to miss the last NA show due to prior family comitments, but that’s just life. Somethings you just have to deal with.

IA have probably meant more to me than any other new (aka sub millenium bug) international hardcore band over the past 5 years. There’s not a thing i dislike about this band. Shit, they put me in hospital and i would do it all over again, haha… Currently contemplating quitting my job and booking a one way ticket overseas on my credit card for their last ever show. We’ll have to see how much i’m prepared to go into my debt of no return though, eep.

THANKS FOR THE FUCKING MEMORIES.

RIP NO APOLOGIES AND INTERNAL AFFAIRS

A Million Here, A Million There

A Sicilian bitch with long hair, with coconut dariere.

Holy shit.

Over 1 million records sold IN A WEEK! The highest selling hip hop artist of all time in a week. It sold faster than 50 Cent’s follow up to Get Rich Or Die Trying, i forgot what that piece of shit was called. The Massacre maybe?

I really like The Carter III, it’s all i’ve really listened to on my i-Pod this week and i even gave it a spin in the club the other night.

He looks like a fucking mongrel, but he’s a fucking inspiration.

Weezy F. Baby IS the hottest rapper alive.

FEELS GOOD TO BE YOUNG MONEY, CASH MONEY

can it all be so simple?

I’m tired of using technology.

As my brother turns 18 next month i’ve been thinking more and more about “the good old days”. Life was so much simpler back then. No expectations, no worries in the world, carefree, only worrying when the next big party was going to be.

Looking back on 25 years on this earth, i don’t feel that much has gone on. Except now there are expectations, now there are worries, should i be doing something else with my life.

I am happy, but am i really going anywhere? Do i even need to be.

I think i’m afraid of asking questions, so i’m hiding in the life i have, which is great, and i am more than happy, but i definately want more out of life than i am giving myself right now.

I need to muster up the courage to take a step in the right direction and do something great.

I think some time away would help me clear my head… It worked last time.

If only i had a spare $10,000 to pay off my credit card and buy a one way ticket to splitsville!

Any takers? Oh wait… No one knows this blog exists, forget it haha…

I’ll just have to keep doing my thing for another year i spose. After all… Growing up IS giving up.

Maybe?

xo

petitioning the empty sky

Today i listened to this CD for the first time in a couple of years. It’s fucking great. From the very first note in The Saddest Day i’m already tapping my feet under my desk and i’m pretty sure dudes at work are looking at me kinda suss, haha. Pioneers in this game.

This afternoon i get to hang out with a friend i hold really close to my heart. She’s going through some shit right now and i have my own tough times, but somehow when we are together the rest of the world is shut out. Nothing can hurt either of us. It’s all smiles and laughs and good times, nothing can touch us, nothing can bring us down. Thats what the world needs more of.

These bonds are what see us through

my favourite mistake was you

alone at night i think about what i’d do
if the person i was meant to be, ever shines through
how i spend my days trying to be
the kind of kid that you want close to you

and i know how this one ends
we want the ones that we can’t have
so what the fuck is wrong with me?
why can’t i let go of you?

the first time all i saw were your eyes
and now i can’t stand to look inside them
it’s not your distance that’s killing me
it’s being close to you that makes me close to myself

and i can’t stand the way i am
i push away the ones who love me
and i embrace the apathy
and hang from all your lies

and if i could, i’d take back my words
and heal my heart

if i could i’d take back the secrets
my stiched up heart

if i could i’d forget your face
a brand new start

if i could i’d show you how
you tore me apart

get busy living, or get busy dying

Dreams are just moments you haven’t lived out yet.

If there is something you want bad enough, you will bust your ass for it.

I’ve had enough of complatency, it’s time to act.

So here’s to health…

Here’s to happiness

And here’s to keeping the dream alive…

Viva Love xo

holding this moment

It’s just one of those weeks where i can’t stop smiling… everything has been great. possibly the best life has been in a long time.

I was talking about the Carpathian album launch shows with a mate yesterday, it’s rare these days when you go to a show where you actually want to watch every band playing, but both shows this weekend were the case. Hopeless, Antagonist, The Broderick, Break Even and Carpathian all played awesomely both days. There is an abundance of good music here in Australia, i just wish more people would open there eyes and see this. Too many people take what they have for granted.

I have learnt some important lessons about taking things for granted lately.

I don’t think i’ve ever enjoyed waking up to being coughed on and snotty tissues like i did this weekend. Thank you for taking another chance with me.

 

My Weekend…

Shirts i got

Food i ate:  Meditteranian Pasta Salad.

Fresh pasta, baby spinich, sweet potato, roasted capsicum, marinated eggplant, sun dried tomatoes, kalamata olives, fried tofu and mushrooms, avocado, dressed with olive oil & salt and pepper. Don’t pretend like you’re not jealous. Pictured here with my friend Cabernet Sauvignon

After an exhausting weekend, all i wanna do is be a dork all night tonight.

Peace

as tradition dies slowly…

So I just deleted my old blog. There wasn’t really much in there, but there was some stuff i never really want to read again.  Likewise, I didn’t want anyone else to read it either.

Today was a pretty heavy day. I found out some pretty serious stuff. How do you put into words the feeling that your best friend in the whole world might not have long to live anymore? Thats right… You can’t…

I had enough of regrets and wasted time… It was nothing positive at all. This won’t be an emotional outburst like that was, just stuff i wanna keep together so i can keep a record of it. I don’t think i’ll keep this one as a private blog. Time will tell…

Now we create our own voice…